The Black Swan Animation Inspired

 PROJECT TITLE: THE BLACK SWAN ANIMATED INSPIRED

SOFTWARE USED: ADOBE ANIMATE

50% PROGRESS (2? AUGUST - CURRENT)

14/9/2021

8:51PM

Time Spent: 1 hour

I have completed the draft of my animation, which is the key poses. It's still look quite unnatural which I will have to repair for, and no human can suddenly just turn like that, I need to make it turn as humanly as possible. At this phase, I usually scratches my head and wants someone else helps and guidance but I'll try to do it at first, then I probably go to someone that is much better at animation in one of my classmates, if they wanted and free to help of course. They usually don't mind. 

Somehow, I feel like I'm being too pessimistic in my LinkedIn but I assure you, It's usually come from humor with a bit of truth in it but It's (kind of) okay, if people don't really follow through with my journey because it does affect your subconscious actually albeit not too much. I don't want to make it feels "negative" even though all feelings are valid. In addition, my texts are all over the places, but it's how I move, I like to jump topic to topic then come back to the main topic. I feel like it van be considered as "time out" you know. Why is it (kind of) okay? because the views and the likes are the source of my motivation but it's not the source of determination. 

Sometimes, you need to recheck yourself and reminded that you are doing this for yourself not for other peoples. I'm never was the patient one, hopefully I will. Anyway, my internship next semester doesn't looks so good, It's doesn't seem like I will be intern next semester. My dad pushed me to internship under my lecturer which are good advice, really. However, as I stated before. I actually rather to focus on my health, and making my portfolio much more solid. Though, I don't really mind going internship next semester because it would save the time and money to pay extra semester (Plus, it got more potential learning curve than learning alone). It's just more preferable for me to "take a break" instead of moving through. It's 2 1/2 weeks more for me to get my internship placement but tomorrow is my doctor's appointment. I wants to asked for him or her to write a letter for my lecturer later on. 

Thanks for reading, Have a good day. 

21/9/2021

11:08 PM

Time Spent: 30minutes~

After much of procrastination, I finally did a bit of it, it's something, better than nothing. As you can see in the screenshot, the left leg seems a bit unnatural right? maybe I'm being too perfectionist but to be an animator, you should also focus on little details like this, it is very much appreciated by the employee and even your clients/audience. It's hard to do a project especially when you want it to be perfect in the first try but I already guess it, that this will need to have a lot of "repairing" to do afterward which makes my brain translate it "too much work" which just fuel my procrastination. 

I posted in LinkedIn that I want to fixed my sleep schedule yesterday but actually yesterday night, my bad habit kicks in, I open the YouTube and watch MrBallen, a YouTube channel that about dark, mysterious and strange in a story format. When I started watched MrBallen, it's feel like I cant stop watching it. It's feels like a drug a bit, where I do anything and I will listen MrBallen's voice in the background. Sometimes, I don't even focus on the story which I had to rewind back the part. Last night, I have the mood to be active suddenly and then I trip by my carpet, I fell. My leg is now swollen and a bit in pain which is fine now, I can walk unlike in the morning where it's hurts too much to even move the leg. 

Thanks for reading, have a good day!

28/9/2021

12:30 AM

Time Spent: 1 hour~

I've been slacking for three days before, last week was really filled with social activisms such as hanging out with my friends, virtually. This is not the same people, it's like three different group of peoples. When I was doing this too. I was on the phone with my friend. I really like hanging out with them, I just wish that I be able to do it while hang out with them EFFICIENTLY you know. I was repairing the same pose today a lot of times because I can't focus on my own project, it's not really their fault actually but none other than mine, but as I said before, I DO ENJOY hanging out with them. However, somehow, I guess I should be upfront with them. I'll try but I don't really have the heart for it and I really DO ENJOY hanging out with them.

Did I already said how much I DO ENJOY hanging out with them? Okay, anyway, I've decided to go through with my internship after all. It's not much different with my online lecturer's for the last 2 1/5 semesters really. I just hope I be able to focus much more on my health later. I felt like there's a lot of things I want to focus, I just wish able to make it all balance and know which one matters the most. The same as with my online presence and my personal life, I should know which one I can shared and when it's too much. I've been feeling like having a mouth diarrhea lately, I am hoping I don't misspoke or something. I've been feeling comfortable lately, to be honest, that it can be.. dangerous. 

For this project, I've been having a hard time to know how to make the legs seems realistic on the way its turn, the part where its turn to forward, I don't get it yet. 

Okay then, Thanks for reading! Have a good day!